My Love ❤️

I’m laying here wide awake. It’s about 7:30 in the morning…everyday this past week I needed to be up early for work I couldn’t drag myself from bed, go figure. Skype is surprisingly still on, normally by now Hazelnut has turned it off by walking on the keys. And guess what? You’ve never looked so handsome to me. You’re wearing a long sleeved shirt, and sleep has pushed the sleeves up to your elbow. The material is pulled tight across your chest. Your face looks so peaceful and I wonder what you are dreaming about. I watch you sleep and my heart flutters. I can easily picture myself sliding in next to you under that manly comforter of yours. If I close my eyes…I can almost feel the warmth of your body so close to mine. We don’t have sex, we don’t need to. We get our high off just being together. I would use your chest as my pillow…maybe. Or I might kick you all night. I have no idea, but it doesn’t matter as long as I’m with you. I’m so In love with you Patrick. Given the chance, I still would never change a thing about you. You’re the perfect man for me, my other half. My soul mate. You always treat me with kindness and respect. You empower me and praise me. You’re always there for me to fall back on. I’m in love. It doesn’t matter if everything else falls apart. We have this thing that is so strong it won’t fail us. I can’t wait till May, so I can finally hold you…kiss you…normal couple things. It’s going to be the most magical day of my life…in the most magical place on earth! I just love you so much baby. Sweet dreams,
Your Baby Girl


Are You Smarter than a 4th Grader?

Because the college students at Texas Tech in this video are not.

This is one of the most disappointing things I have ever seen. These are American 20 somethings. Obviously well educated (being in college means they SHOULD have the basics skills and knowledge required to pass elementary, middle, and high school) however, they fail to know some of the most important and I would presume widely known history of our country.

1. Who won the civil war?

One of the students she asks is African American, which makes it all the more disappointing when he looks at her like shes the loch ness monster. He had no idea. How sad is that!? Another student asked ‘WHICH CIVIL WAR’. Please educate me on the other civil wars???

2. Who is our Vice President?

Most of them didn’t even try! They shrugged their shoulders and said ‘I have no idea’. Wow.

3. Who did we gain our independence from?

Again just blank stares. WHERE DID THESE PEOPLE RECEIVE THEIR EDUCATION? Honestly I remember learning about the revolutionary war just about every year since like the fifth grade…somebody sit these students down and make them watch Liberty’s Kids (like my favorite show growing up)

The list goes on and on…BUT have no fear, these students did know the answer to a few VERY important questions:

What show is Snooki on? Who is Brad Pitt married to? Who was he married to before that?

Just think. These students are old enough to vote. Even more scary, some of them are probably registered voters who actually take to the polls. These students are in charge of leading America into the future. How can we possibly do that with out knowing our history? Knowing our values and our core beliefs. Knowing the struggle it’s been to get to where we are today.

Please I beg you, WAKE UP! Learn about this great country that you have the PRIVILEGE to say that ‘I am an American.’ Do you know how many people would swim through a sea of thumb tacks to be able to say that?  Take pride in our country. Take care of it. Guard it with everything you have. Protect it. Start by learning why this country is so important. As an American you have so many rights, but do you know how we got them? What it takes to keep them? America didn’t just appear on day…it took blood sweat and tears to form the first country on earth that took a shot at democracy. Then you need to keep up with today’s politics. I’m not saying you have to watch every Address the Nation, or political debate…but keep a basic understanding at least.

Please try a little harder.

New Year means a Second Chance

The movie ‘Forrest Gump’ is famous, partly due to the iconic quotes that come from the movie.

quotes such as:

“Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get.”


“Jenny and Me were like peas and carrots.”

However, there is one quote that isn’t as famous as the others.

“I just love the New Year. Everyone gets a second chance.”

Ok that may not be exactly what was said, but you get the picture. Even though the girl who said it seemed to be an empty headed bar slut, the phrase is beautifully truthful.

This past year, has been stressful. A lot of bad happened, I lost my best friend…I lost my kitty Kali. However, some pretty amazing things happened this year. I joined a sorority! (Phi Sigma Sigma forever!) I made a new best friend (looking at you Sydney!) Also I adopted a new furbaby Hazelnut Grace!

Here is my list of goals for 2015 (and the strength to keep up with them)

1. I have created a study plan for the new semester, hopefully I can drastically improve my grades.

2. I want to go out more. I am not the typical college sorority college girl. I don’t go out. I don’t party. I really don’t have a taste for ‘parties’ but I would like to get out more.

3. This may sound crazy but I want to delete the stupid games from my phone that I’m semi addicted to. (Sims Freeplay and that stupid Kim Kardashian game) and focus on more important things.

4. Improve my health

5. I want to try more things, like do or try one new thing a day.

6. Learn lots of new skills

7. find time to do what I love. I thought college and two jobs was keeping me from finding time to read…but binge watching netflixs doesn’t help.


9. Improve my relationships. Recently I was reunited with a part of my family I thought I would never see again and I can’t wait to rebuild that relationship. I want to improve my relationship with my parents, even though we already have a good thing going. Improve communication with my long distant friends Aubrie and Katie…and the ones who live close to me Sydney and Kylee. Also this WILL be the year I finally meet my Prince Charming Patrick. I’ll make it happen one way or another.

10. Never stop chasing that dream. Whatever it may be. I’ve changed my mind a million times, but I won’t settle till I am happy.

So there ya have it folks! I’m not asking for too much right?

Good luck on the New Year!

Hey Friends

It’s been awhile since we last “talked” and let me tell you, life has been crazy

First, I wanted to formally introduce my new Kitten, Hazelnut Grace. I’m sure you have seen her cuteness on my instagram. I got her only a few days after Kali’s death. I know it was very fast but, I couldn’t stand to come home to an empty apartment any more. I had a void in my chest and it made me feel like I couldn’t breath. Even after the introduction of this adorable ball of fur into my life…I still sank into a depression. I couldn’t get out of bed. I didn’t want to eat. I didn’t want to do anything…and I am only now getting out of that.

Thankfully I acquired a second job…at my forth favorite place on earth (1. Walt Disney World. 2. Paris, France. 3. Rome, Italy) GOODWILL. Yes, I have a job at the thrift store and honestly…I love it. My coworkers are amazing…they have taught me so much and have been willing to not just be coworkers…but also friends. The shoppers are great, I rarely RARELY have a cross costumer. I am happier there then I have been anywhere…even the Bookstore. Even my bosses are kind and can be really fun.

Opps Patrick’s calling 😛 I’ll finish this up later

Love you guys!

To My Future Children

As I am writing this, I am only a day away from my twentieth birthday. My favorite color is yellow, I love tacos, and I am obsessed with The Little Mermaid. I don’t know you yet but…I want you to know that I love you; and you own every once of my heart.

When people ask me what my biggest fear is; I normally tell them I fear being alone. This is not completely true, I value my alone time. What I really fear is the inability to have children. Thankfully if you’re reading this it means that my fear is now irrelevant. I have always wanted you. I have always wanted to be your mom.

When I was 16, a LOT of my friends were having children. It was happening all across America. I dreamed about you, I thought and prayed for you. However, I obviously did not have you at 16….even though it would have been easy to do. I had a boyfriend at the time and many of my friends were already starting their families. But I didn’t. Why?

I was thinking about you. The boy I was dating at 16? He would not have been a good father for you. Which means I would have to work instead of finishing school…what kind of life would that have been for you…for us? Every choice I have made since I was 13…was with you in mind. Everything from my dating relationships to my college major. I thought about you before I knew you, and I am already in love with you.

I will always be glad that I took the time to enjoy my youth before settling down. At this moment I am considering dying my hair Ariel Red…because I’m young and I’ll never have the chance to do this again.

Your mother is not perfect…even your father has his imperfections. We have both made mistakes in our lives. However, we made sure you would not be one of those mistakes. We want to wait till after we are married and able to support ourselves before we have you…which means you’ll grow up in a home where you are always taken care of and you know we love you dearly.

My message for you is this: Do not grow up too quick. Take the time to take in the scenery on the way up.

Yankee Candle FUNdraiser!

Looking for a quick easy Christmas Gift? Without going to the store? I am selling the famous Yankee Candles for a fundraiser! The proceeds from my candle sales will help me pay my Sorority dues. As a member of Phi Sigma Sigma I am an active part of the community, I volunteer and donate goods. Please visit the website to place an order to help me continue to grow as a woman. But by quick! This fundraiser ends tomorrow, November 24 at midnight so get those orders in!

Thank you!
(make sure that my name is located in the box on the left hand of the page)